Marking the 10 year anniversary of the death of my first husband, Tony LeBruno. So, there is a lot to talk about when trying to recap the past ten years, but that is what this whole blog adventure is for. However, for this first post, I will just write about how I am feeling as…
A New Normal
This blog post is in response to a realization that I had the other day with a co-worker who is also going through their own loss. Although their loss is much different than mine, I feel as if a theme resonates through any recovery. There will need to be a new normal. I didn’t automatically…
Faced with Depression and Anxiety
It wasn’t very long after Tony was diagnosed that I knew something was not right with me. I had always been the kind of person to wake up with a plan for the day, prepare my mental checklist and get it done; check, check, check. I would pack our bags for the hospital, fill up…
The Path of Finding Love Again
If there was one thing that I was most afraid of when it came time to dating again, it was the fear of the guilt I would feel. I had heard the stories and seen the movies about loss and the overwhelming feeling of ‘replacement’ that I would experience when I thought I was ready….
The Reality of Mortality
It has been hard to get motivated to write during the COVID19 pandemic. My mind is all over the place with questions, concerns, and inundated with information that is fake, too liberal, or too conservative. Social media doesn’t make things any better with violent displays of hate, sadness, and a slight glimmer happiness every now…
My Fight With God
How I found myself hating God and what happened when I turned from Him. “Sometimes life requires more of you than you have to give & demands you plunge into the reinvention of yourself if you truly wanna live.”― Curtis Tyrone Jones Those who grew up with me know how important my religion was. I…
To Speak or Not To Speak?
One of the hardest parts of losing someone is wondering what’s next on many levels, especially relationships. Do I continue to talk to their friends or family? I am so close to their family now, will that change? Will it hurt to continue to speak with their family? Will they want to talk to me?…
From Pain to Purpose 